Contemplation on the Carn

The 792-metre Corbett ‘Carn Ealasaid’ (pronounced Karn Yal-ah-sid), GM/ES-030, a four-pointer which lies in the Cairngorms National Park close to the Lecht Ski Centre, has been on my to-do list for some time. As so often for we Aberdeenshire-based SOTA folk, it was Fraser @MM0EFI who suggested a straightforward route from Corgarff following little-used but well-defined Land Rover tracks all the way to the wide and featureless summit plateau. He wasn’t wrong……!

After barely an hour’s drive from home, we parked at the small parking area next to historic Corgarff Castle, first built in about 1530 - its turbulent history is worth a read - and a short stroll up the road saw us take the track on the Allargue Estate from behind Kelvingrove Academy’s “Wilderness Campus” building (I preferred it when it was the Allargue Inn). From there, Fraser’s activation report from 5 November 2023 can’t be bettered:-

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It was an unusually calm and warm day for this part of the world so even our SOTAdog, Sula, enjoyed the occasional rest as we climbed and left the castle far below. I was glad to take advantage of the brief stops, too. The grades are generally not too arduous but the heart-rate monitor on my Garmin watch was ticking ominously upwards on the slightly steeper upper slopes. Great to be walking in the Cairngorms in a polo-shirt, though. Not a particularly common occurrence!

Reaching the summit and its tiny cairn presented me and my ever-present XYL, Ann, with a wonderful panorama. Clockwise from the west lay Ben A’an and Cairngorm, further round to the north-west was Ben Wyvis and to the north, Morven in Caithness. To the east was Bennachie, near our home, while continuing to turn round gave us views of Morven, Mount Keen and Lochnagar, in addition to glimpses much farther away to Beinn a’ Ghlo above Blair Atholl. Quite breathtaking.

If you’ve read this far, thank you, but before I get to the radio stuff, I should put this walk in context. It was my first activation since March. Some of you likely suffer significant physical problems or perhaps recurring and debilitating mental issues, as I do, and the effort of even a modest activation can be almost as frustrating as sitting in the shack chasing other activators who seem to bound up mountains with astonishing regularity, ease and success, desperately wishing you could do that, too.

Occasional friendly jibes about me being lazy, unfit or unambitious at my relative lack of uphill activity can sting a bit (I have more than 2,500 chaser points and more than 500 unique summits chased, but have managed just 34 activations in my three years of SOTA) even although no harm is intended by them. The fact that a successful SOTA chaser is called a “Shack Sloth” implies that it’s a slothful choice. Sadly, some of us don’t always have a choice, as many of you will know. When a fine day arrives, the bands are in good shape and a decent hill beckons, it is debilitating to suffer the sort of problems that sometimes mean just surviving that day, unable to leave the house, is a notable achievement.

Today, however, I was ready, able and willing, and arriving at the Càrn Ealasaid summit to revel in the glorious scenery, I was truly thankful that I was able to be up here, even although it felt as though I’d just climbed Mount Everest, in stilettos, carrying a grand piano! I quickly I set up the KX2 with my trusty 41ft end-fed on a SOTAbeams Carbon 6 pole.

First, though, I gave a few CQs on 2m on my Yaesu FT4xe with a short whip antenna as I knew that Simon @GM4JXP would be listening for me in Aboyne. Sadly, I couldn’t hear him, nor anyone else for that matter. Things on HF SSB seemed pretty poor, too, with no response to a CQ on 10m or 20m, although I did manage to chase one S2S to Austria on that band after a struggle with significant QSB.

However, a further spot on 40m SSB brought me seven quick contacts including Esther @GI0AZA whose lovely warm voice is guaranteed to brighten any day. (Apologies Ian @GI0AZB you were just as welcome in my log but Esther’s dulcet tones can’t be beaten :joy:).

In a few minutes I’d logged geographically neat calls with Northern Ireland; England (Allen @2E0AGB, Ken @G0FEX and an S2S with Rod @M0JLA/P); Wales (John @2W0ILQ) and Scotland (Andy @MM7MOX) which was particularly welcome as I am usually chasing him, not the other way round!

Despite still being a relative novice, I’d intended to go on to CW which would have made the best of the poor conditions but as I have outlined above, sometimes my anxieties suddenly get the better of me and in no time I lost my nerve to do so. It’s so desperately frustrating to cut short such a glorious day but I know when I’m beaten. A quick coffee and a sandwich (the cheese in which had begun to melt in the warm sunshine) and it was time to head down. But not before snapping a picture at the cairn of my SOTA sunhat - not always my goto headgear on an activation here, unfortunately - and my mountain mascot, Ben the Bear, who does usually accompany me.

SOTAdog Sula was delighted to splash about in the burn as we reached the main track back to the car as it was a warm day for wearing a fur coat. I have to say I was tempted to join her but the car, and a shower at home, beckoned instead, much to Ann’s relief!

So I’m writing this the day after the activation and giving thanks for being able to be back up in the mountains after a really tough few months personally. OK, so the bands were poor, with no DX for me and contacts were few, but the sheer pleasure of being out again, on a fine day, was more than sufficient compensation.

Not all disabilities are visible, or audible, or at a recognisable level, and not everyone can always achieve what they desire. Not everyone is a technical genius and not everyone is a potential mountain goat. Some, by necessity, are much more sloth than goat, but I hope the SOTA family can continue to be supportive, patient and understanding of everyone who participates in our fascinating hobby, at whatever level, and be kind at all times in their words and deeds. After all, it is, and should be, fun.

As for me, well, my boots are cleaned, rucksack re-packed, the KX2’s battery charged and CW paddle ready for my next outing. I can’t predict when that will be as it’s not totally in my hands, but every activation is a joy, as is every successful chase from my shack, and that will never be taken for granted.

Vy 73 Mike :grinning:

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Many thanks Mike for great report with terrific photos. An enjoyable read. :+1:

Geoff vk3sq

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Hi Mike,
I was delighted to chase you on Wednesday. I had sneaked up East Craiglockart hill for an early lunch break. I had trouble chasing on 20m as well and wasn’t able to complete any qso’s on that band, but got yourself and Rod on 40m with some qsb.
From the pictures it looks like a great day to be on the hill.
Andy
MM7MOX

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Well done Mike. Great report! I think it is courageous of you to talk about your health issues. Thank you for being so open. Having to deal with those makes every outing a ten point summit for you, so I’m so glad you had a great day out (band conditions excepted).

I’ve been suffering from with anxiety for eight years now but only decided I needed to seek help two years ago. A course of CBT, some reading, support from work and some light medication has made a world of difference to me. To context it in terms of SOTA, I wouldn’t sleep the night before a hike even a simple one, would think I wouldn’t make it to the top or be late and get no contacts. Even worse, get an email from the MT, taking all my points away because they didn’t believe I’d done it. At work, I lost all confidence in a job I’d been doing for my whole adult life.
Anyway, I don’t want to take away from your excellent report, however you’re not alone. As for the jibes on the whatsapp group, point taken and I’ll just have to find another way to pay you back for your terrible jokes.

Can’t unsee that…

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My sentiments exactly Mike, well done for activating, as you probably know, I have attempted to return to activations , but without success at least 5 times since my disability and am resigned to the fact that Chasing is better for me.

So pleased you managed it and a bit jealous at the same time.

Good luck with the next ones

73 Tony

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Thanks for sharing this, Fraser @MM0EFI… No one could have been, or is, more SOTA-supportive to me and thousands of other activators and chasers than you. To learn that you, too, have faced some demons and been able to challenge them is hugely encouraging for people to realise. I recognise everything you say here and none of it can take anything away from my report as I know your comments will resonate with many others (unlike my antennas, it has to be said!)
Delighted your ways of tackling the issues have brought such positive results. I’ve benefited from an intensive two-month course in mindfulness, taught by my wonderful daughter-in-law (www.thehappysigh.co.uk) and that is one reason I’m currently back on my feet.
However, every opinion I’ve sought, medical or otherwise, agrees that all the jibes I face on the Aberdeenshire SOTA WhatsApp group are thoroughly deserved and, tragically, that there is no known cure for my terrible jokes… :weary:

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I can only imagine the frustrations this must cause you, Tony, and I really hope that one day you can manage even a straightforward one-pointer to experience the fun of activating and working /P again. If not, it’s fortunate that at least SOTA gives us the opportunity to participate as chasers from somewhat less lofty locations. Take care and stay positive. Vy 73 Mike :+1:.

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Just too much rock between that summit and Aboyne I’m afraid. Great report Mike and I’m glad you managed a successful activation despite the poor conditions. I look forward to working you on the next one.
73 Simon

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Thanks Andy. Interesting that there weren’t many contacts for you either. No matter, it was a glorious day to be out and great to get you in my log again. 73 Mike :grinning:

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Many thanks for the excellent report Mike and very well done on the activation. Hopefully it won’t be long before you are able to get out on the hills again. SOTA activating produces loads of endorphins guaranteed to make us feel good and keep stress levels down. I’m sure it helps many of us cope with life and the benefits to our mental well-being cannot be underestimated.

Hopefully work you when I eventually get back up to Scotland.

73, Gerald

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That’s absolutely right Gerald - except when my stress levels rise because my CW copying doesn’t match my expectations and ambitions…! :cry:

Will very much look forward to that. Haste ye back. 73 Mike :grinning:

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I am trying… honest! Currently it’s looking like late August / early September. Then I will definitely be back for the Trans-Atlantic S2S event on Saturday 2nd November. Carn Ealisaid might fit the bill for that one with the track access providing a safe-ish descent route in the dark. A necessity at my age! :grin:

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Mike, your sense of humour is clearly still working and that is probably the most important part of life. Re your limitations due to mental illnesses I think the wider acceptance of mental illness as a fact of life for some is a big improvement in social relationships for people labouring under various types of mental illness. This aspect (SOTA) of amateur radio is a prime example of how important social interactions are to humans. In the last year I’ve battled some problems with no apparent cause and have come to appreciate the SOTA side of my life even more than previously. So i urge you to keep activating, even if it’s the same summit. Play with antennas, vary your station and your protective gear. It will keep you involved and motivated.
Very best regards,
Andrew VK1DA

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Excellent, Andrew. The fact that there is often no apparent cause for occurrences and that many people can only offer “just cheer up” in response supports the fact that wider acceptance is vital. SOTA is definitely a key part of maintaining social interactions. :+1:

Well, some might argue it has never worked! You’ve got to laugh though… :rofl: 73 Mike

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Thanks for the contact Mike and thanks for the very good report and lovely photos. Best 73

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Bands seemed generally quiet that day so pleased to get you in the log, Allen. Many thanks. :+1:

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Delighted to see you’ve been up a hill Mike and that you did so well. It’s not one we thought of when we were up there as it was a bit far away from either Aboyne or Aberlour but it looks a suitable level of walk for our fitness then - but not now as we (especially me) are still affected by the Covid we imported from Scotland 2+ months ago. I don’t know when my energy will suddenly disappear and I will need to rest for minutes or hours. This has made me lose confidence both when riding the pedal bike even in fairly flat Hereford (but we do have Grade A potholes everywhere) and guessing how far I can walk safely. Also my usually vigorous (foghorn?) voice is not currently reliable which makes making contacts rather more challenging. I have been reminded how important the social aspect of SOTA contacts is to me - which is why I like talking on VHF and UHF when voices usually come through very clearly and odd jokes can be cracked and heard - usually with enthusiasm! I am glad we made a couple of contacts when we were in your area and I look forward to further contacts in the future. Don’t worry about being a chaser most of the time - the activators can’t succeed without your help and you are definitely an essential part of the system…
73 Viki

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Hi Viki. Am sorry and concerned to hear of the difficulties you have had since you took home an unpleasant souvenir of your most recent GM trip. Such an illness is debilitating and can be frustratingly long-lasting but I do hope that you will return to your characteristic energy and enthusiasm very soon and that your voice (definitely not a foghorn) will be gracing the airwaves again before too long. It says a lot for your considerable efforts when you are up here that you are currently my third most chased callsign! Haste ye back. We all enjoy your visits. For now, take care and take time to recover and I look forward to speaking with you again soon, perhaps on my next long-awaited trip south again. With every good wish and thanks. Vy 73 Mike :grinning:

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Hi Mike. I really enjoyed your well-written report and pictures. I’m glad it was a rewarding and successful day for you in the hills. My mother used to lament that I didn’t go to church. I told her my church was in the mountains.

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Great photos and well done on the activation with the YL and hound for company.
My YL has been hiking every summit with me this year as well so its interesting to get her perspective when hiking up a hill to play radio.
My panic attacks ended up causing AF and a few trips back to the heart specialist to check me out. You are right they just turn up any time even in what seems like the happier moments in your life. I guess as we get older and live longer we have a lot more baggage that builds up in our minds, who knows. We can’t turn back the clock and change anything good or bad so we just have to move on forward and if the lid blows off your rubbish bin get it jammed back on ASAP.
Take care everyone out there suffering in silence and get as many SOTA days in your life as possible be it activating or chasing. My most treasured pass time/obsession.
Regards
Ian vk5cz …

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